Manifestations Of Youth.

There was only one woman who really f**ked me up down left right center.

Recently i have a appointment near her place. It took quite a bit of determination not to go over and take a glance at her window or even check if the family car still around.

While clearing up my junk mail, i came across our old email back then. Realized some aspect of me really did not changed over the years, like how i still hide in my cave when i encounter knotty issues.

We should really ought to read Dr John Gray’s works last time. Such an typical example of man from mars i was and vice versa for her. Then maybe we will not get so emotional last time until we resort to emailing to convey messages which result in further disputes.

Below is extract of her fierce mail;

I will only put things to an end if it is eating into me. I will not give a second thought about it if it is getting nowhere. Silence is golden, but too much silence is FATAL. It can simply murder all the things that has been built over whatever period of time. If you think that you prefer to keep things to yourself and hide in your own comfort zone without looking around at those who are there caring for, YOU ARE REALLY BEING TOO SELFISH. If that is the case, don’t even leave your door ajar, coz the other party is only authorized to gain access to part of your world (to make things worst, perhaps only a quarter access to it).

I really should learn from this precedent.

I always believe that the pursuit of happiness is not equivalent to pursuit of monetary, Yet money being the the next most importance item to oxygen is often on top of everyone list.I always been bothered that i do not have a strong desire within except to fulfill Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. Always been bothered once i fulfill it, what is next in store for me? Why was the hunger never truly there to reach out high?

Mr James Skinner help answer unravel this paradox that been bothering me. He share 5 reasons to the question WHY i should carry on. The first two reason shared is good enough for me.

Money give me ability to say NO.
Money give the ability to say YES

Simple phase from extraordinary beings exert great influence. It’s been money well spent indeed. No more television, dramas, other people’s life and experience.

Now i will live my own.

Damm tired after 2 straight days of 12 hours congress.

Sign up for another two more seminars and get a autographed book.

Lucky the fellow who sit beside me on my KL trip. I am so gonna share with him.

Wahahahahhaahaha

“Prosperity is not without many fears and disasters; and adversity is not without comforts and hopes.” Francis Bacon

It is yet another year!!!
Another week with some of the world’s greats!!
Nice timing… To get myself recharged!!

The irresistible power of conditioning is graphically illustrated by Boston Celtics great Larry Bird. When he was hired to star in a soft-drink commercial, the script called for him to miss a shot.

He made nine baskets in a row before he could bring himself to miss! He had been so conditioned to put that ball through the hoop that it took all of his concentration and a good deal of practice to flub even one. No doubt there is a part of Larry Bird’s brain that is a virtual neural superhighway to the sequence of motions required to sink a basket.

Know that we can condition any behavior if we do it with enough repetition and emotional intensity.

Recently people around me are turning emo. I think they have conditioned themselves in a wrong direction..

“Tenderness and kindness are not signs of weakness and despair but manifestations of strength and resolution”

“To the question of your life you are the answer, and to the problems of your life you are the solution.”

~Joe Cordare

I dream of a wedding….

Some time ago, i decided to clean up my life. Too often in life, i have miss out opportunities in life due to inadequate preparation and my stubbornness.

After all, Preparation + Opportunity = Success

However when life seem good, pitfalls such as complacency set in and i miss out on a couple of golden opportunities. Is it not so familiar just like that particular scene when Gardener find his bank account frozen cos he neglect to pay his taxes.

Aye, and i have stray from the path and as such i need to bring myself back.

Opportunities are often disguised as hard work, so most people don’t recognise them.