Manifestations Of Youth.

Managed to came home early today and catch the ending part of today drama HealingHands.
Boey Lam was going about “Forever was not something he was confident of” and thus he lived life in the rotten old way.
To be confident and successful in everything yet lack of faith in maintaining relationship is just so soul wrenching.
To be pursuit everything else yet convert to be a avoider where it perhaps matter most.
If only someone is able to perform ablation on me.

Someone shared a long time ago that one will not given more than one can manage.
Recently in a bid to do more got me fallen into the trap of more haste less speed.
I gain a few more yet lost a few more recently.It turned out to be zero sum game after all.
Will have to focus on improving the management before i can see myself in the positive range.
Strange but true how some principle laws in life turn out to be true.
Learn my lesson the hard way once again.

I grow sick of what i saw…
Yet i am also part of that rotting sickness…
The more everyone try to be detached, the worse the sickness is spreading…

I just got seriously pissed off and therefore made my decision about it.

Strangely i feel calm upon deciding.

The negative emotions emitted during a recent conversation also got me pondering as well. And it kinda attract negative events as well which is utterly disruptive at this point on morale and will.

Have to block out all noises and focus the will needed to cross this lap of the race.

Before i permit myself to indulge on reflective thinking about what next. There are many matters which i have put off making decisions which have came back to bug me seriously

Weary times it have became and it might be ripe to install a pillar of courage and strength.